Struggling with your aims
If you have to suffer and fight for your desires and expectations in life – let yourself fall – start new – listen to your voice – inner voice – your feelings – your being and you will find out what you have to do, what fits. Give yourself enough time. Realize what is valuable or was for you, what you need to keep from it, to ground yourself and not lose yourself. You only live once. Health, good luck. Friends and dear people can accompany you and will also forgive you if you made mistakes in your life. But never give up yourself.